I feel defeated. I am angry. I guess taking a risk 3 years ago has brought me to a dead end. I am only writing this post at this point to share where we are at. I can’t pray right now- I can’t think. I need a lot of intercession in the next week. I got the call today that I have cancer again in my uterus. I had cancer in my uterus after a biopsy in July of  2016.  I had a d&c following that biopsy and he said “I don’t know what I pulled out, but there’s no sign of cancer in your uterus.”  Fast forward and I’ve had pre cancer and then an all clear biopsy. It seriously has been the most draining roller coaster rides of my life.
So what now? Hysterectomy next Friday most likely. . I have a d&c tomorrow to look inside (per my request) and then we have a very very small chance of one last pregnancy. If d&c is 100% clear- immediat fetility dr treatment plan for at most 3 month. If no pregnancy- immediate hysterectomy- we are not playing with fire anymore.  If d&c is not 100% clear- hysterectomy as scheduled for next Friday.