It has been almost exactly 3 months on the megace medicine. It's been toughest this past month. In support of my efforts to combat the intense weight gain, I've been on the Whole30 diet. We are actually in week 7 of the diet and I will remain on it until I actually see weight loss (after the meds wear off). I have my D&C first thing in the morning on March 10. I should know results by the following Tuesday. Praying specifically that there is zero sign of any abnormal cell growth. God has healed me from th cancer cells once and I know he is the ultimate healer and can keep my body clear of any damaging cell grow. If (when) the results come back all clear, we will have a few months to try and conceive. With a high risk of another ectopic, we will wait a little longer this time to help decrease the risk of another ectopic. We are hopeful that God has allowed healing already and that Godis faithful to complete his work in our journey.  Please pray specifically for the remainder of side effects the meds are having on me to be positive and me to have strength to finish the meds strong. Pray specifically that God has healed my uterine lining and I can stop taking the meds. I will update once we know our results of the D&C.

Ok. We had a d&c to analyze the growth in my uterine lining last Monday. I received a call from the oncologist today. He said "Well it's good news,  it is just precancerous cells again and it wasn't much at all. So if you want another chance to conceive biologically, you can do the progesterone medicine again for 3-4 months. So I will see you again in March."

So what does this mean? It means Gods not done yet. He has given us another chance. I do not have to have a hysterectomy yet. It means that my body is doing well considering, but it still needs to be treated for the precancerous cell growth- no matter how small.

It also means I will gain weight. I know it is directly related to the medicine and that m y body won't  burn fat or calories the same way, and I will be restricted to no carbs or sugars and still gain weight. It means that we will need a lot of strong prayer warrior to help us fight an emotional and mental battle that the medicine creates. We made it through last time, we can make it through again.

Pray for wisdom after the medicine treatment to know our best/safest timeline for trying to conceive . The highest risk this medicine comes with is another ectopic. We, along with the Drs, will use my  past history and try to lower the risk of another ectopic too soon after the medicine treatment. Again, specific prayers for this wisdom.

We are praising God that we do not have to proceed with a hysterectomy just yet and although it's a tough journey, we know (from many evidences) that God is in control and giving us the stamina and wisdom through this journey.

Thank you for all the continued prayers and for the many many prayers we will be covered in these next few months.
We are at peace and praising God for this next step.

D&C

This has been such a long journey. It's not just infertility we are faced with, it is the cancer cells in my uterus that we are fighting against. I had my 4month biopsy on Thursday. Today- Tuesday, I got a call from the oncologist. He said "Well, it's coming back. It's not much, but it is there. If the  D&C comes back clear, we don't have to have a hysterectomy. However, you will have to take the medicine again for 4months  if you don't have to have a hysterectomy."

Again I am hurting in my heart and soul. I have a lot of questions. I have a lot of defeated feelings. I am again angry on a lot of levels.

I am also clinging, clinging to one last chance that I may or may not get.

I am again at a point where I need a lot of prayer warriors to help fight. Fight against the odds. Fight against the cancer cells that keep wanting to come every few months. Fighting against the pain and temptation to give up. Fight against the mental lies. Fight against the hopelessness that I cycle in and out of.

Please pray on my behalf since I am at a point of few words.

Well, we were originally scheduled to have a routine biopsy in November. Due to some possible concerns, an ultra sound was done this week.
Two smaller growths which they initially call "polyps" were found in my uterus again. They would explain why we haven't concieved yet after the D&C in July.
We are awaiting a call from the oncologist to schedule another D&C to remove these "polyps" before having a healthy uterus for possible conception. Instead of the biopsy in November, we will most likely have the biopsy of the tissue from the D&C in the next week or so.
Positives: there was no apparent growth in the uterin lining. The "polyps" were smaller than the growths found in the past. These are both good signs when praying against any cancer  type growth in the uterus.

Where we are now: praying for no precancer or cancer cells in the tissue from the D&C, prayer for wisdom of the Dr. regarding next steps or options to prevent any growth in my uterus long enough to conceive, praying for peace about any results or steps we take next in this journey.

We are still also praying about the next steps and ideas for fundraising for possible adoption as well since we know the preparation itself can take a long time and a lot of finances up front. We know God may be leading our journey in that direction and we now have open hearts to his plan either biologically or through the gift of adoption.

We have come a long way and learned a lot about God and his character through this. We are still rejoicing from the amazing miracle we experienced from the last biopsy/D&C. We know God still deeply loves us and wants what is best for us and our future family even though it can be hard to grasp that in the midst of so many ups and downs and back and forth from unknowns with my health.

I hope someone can be encouraged and hopeful through our journey as they see that God is still performing miracles, is faithful and loves unlike any love. I will continue to post many many verses and encouragements from what I have been learning through this on a daily basis.  I cry, plead, rest, proclaim, praise...

Your prayers have been heard and many have been answered in forms of blessings! Thank you for you- prayer warriors!!

Well, the oncologist called with the results from my D&C procedure on Monday.

The conversation went like this...

"Well, this looks good."
What does that mean?
"You did not have much tissue in your uterus and the tissue I pulled out is very organized and looks good.  I am not sure what cancer cells we pulled out for your biopsy in June, but there are no defined cancer cells from your D&C.  You don't even need to take megace (progesterone meds I had to take last August). I will see you in 4 months for a follow-up D&C if you are not pregnant."
I told him he had no idea how many people were praying specifically for a miracle for my health and situation.  He said "Well, it worked!"

Wow!

Please share this testimony of God's miraculous works through the power of prayer.  It has been a lot of heart-ache and it's been a long journey-  we are not done yet, but at least we have this amazing milestone of praise and glory!!

Wow. The power of prayer has been felt a lot this past week. I have had so many moments of peace and serenity between the roller coaster emotions. We have made it through a super tough week.

So the MRI- it was performed to show if there was masses/ large growths, or growths in my uterine lining. My lining was healthy looking from the MRI. It was not to confirm or deny the presence of cancer cells completely.
The MRI came back GReat! No masses or growths and no cancer embedded in my lining.

So now what?

I have to proceed with the DnC Monday morning at 7:30 am CT. This will give us some more clarity on the stage of the cancer cells present.

If it comes back with no abnormal cancer cells, we can proceed with the progesterone treatment for 4 months, gain 15 lbs, fight emotions like crazy- and then have another DnC and if it can  confirm no cancer growth- then proceed with trying to concieve again.
This is the process we already went through from last August-December and got clear results last time.

If it comes back with abnormal aka-ugly cancer cells, then we will have a hysterectomy wishing 2 weeks from this  Monday.

We are mentally ready, whether hard or not, to proceed with a hysterectomy, but still able to hope for complete healing.

This post won't have the energy to be long. It's been an exhausting day. I had an ultrasound in May by a radiologist. It came back all good.  I had the biopsy (routine), on Thursday. I got the results today. It's cancer. In August I was diagnosed with pre cancer in my uterus, went through medicine for treatment, got all clear results in December.  Had an ectopic pregnancy January-March.

Our next steps are to have an MRI of my pelvic area. This MRI will determine if I can do another round of medicine or have to have a hysterectomy. The MRI will most likely be the 7th or 8th of July and my dnc to clear the cancer cells out will be Monday, July 11.

Not sure what else to think, pray, or say. We covet all prayers.